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boys will be boys

Sun, 20 Aug 2006 07:38:38 GMT

i miss my boy. richie needs to get home and possibly call me. hopefully a trip to chicago and camping will take place before school starts. i'm stoked.

in other news, work sucks, schools starting just around the corner, erik still likes me, for once in my life i have a boy who likes me for me and not for my face, doing cover for the nightclub sucked tonight, i need some sleep because erik and richie like to keep me awake at night, cute for the second boy.

my bff is a whorebag, for real.

Mon, 31 Jul 2006 17:17:10 GMT

lets see here...can maureen be any more of a bitch? i seriously hope not.

she told jesse that i hang out with erik and get stoned all the time. so not cool.

erik is a filf...its kind of strange. ha...well, i need to go to work and hope i dont work with maureen.

p.s. I leave for whitnee's cabin on thursday...sweeeet.

Tue, 18 Jul 2006 22:17:10 GMT

      my poster will suck majorly.
troy quit, i'm sad.
post work hangs will be horrible without him. at least i still have erik, whitnee and benny!!
i come home on friday..sweet.
three more night of ultimate frisbee...not sweet.
i wish that more people in stilly/the maht played ultimate.
dinner is served so i'm going to go eat a lot and get E. Coli...shiiiiit.

Sun, 16 Jul 2006 21:01:35 GMT

I have a week left until i go home and see everyone! I still miss jesse,erik,troy,maureen,libby...and everyone else. i neeeed to see them or else i'll go insane. im procrastinating like always. i need to finish my project that is due in the morning...fuuuck. i also feel kind of sick, not good. hopefully i'll be fine. i am super sore because i havent been really active until two nights ago. over the past 48 hours i have :

played unlitmate frisbee for over 4 hours
went kayaking(tipped once) for 3 hours
went swimming for 2 hours
walked around town for 2 hours

that's so much physical activity in such a short time period for not being active in over a week...sweet.

i miss everyone dearly and i'll see you soon.

biohazard level 4

Thu, 13 Jul 2006 14:11:59 GMT

i'm fucked. college has taken over my life. i'm a germ-a-phobe now. only a week and a half. i miss jesse. i miss erik. i miss troy. i miss maureen. most of all i miss my own bed. i want to go home right now and give jesse a huuuge hug. it's been for real a month and a half since i've seen him, at least i have something to look forward to!! i'm going to go finish my coffee and head off to lecture, lecture, lunch, lab, lecture, dinner, lecture, homework time. morris has me wrapped around its finger. i need a break, my brain hurts more than i thought it could. oh by the way, i miss everyone like crazy because i don't get along with nerds or girls, or girls that are nerds and haven't even seen weed or vodka...i miss the maht/stilly.

fuck...i'm never pissed

Sun, 25 Jun 2006 03:34:48 GMT

Im pissed off...
hangs with max and moe turned sour
after max and i were flirting
...just because were cuter doesnt mean shit.

I dont understand why shes like that all the time.
oh, i love the lies....I LOOOVVVEEE them.

Frieght house needs to burn.

I miss Jesse
I dont feel the same way as Nick...please lay off a little.

Where to begin?

Sat, 17 Jun 2006 16:08:32 GMT

School
I finished school off with pretty decent grades
I go to UM-Morris for my biology program in 3 weeks
My AP Lit summer project can die.
Work
Cassie finally came around and loves me now
Whitnee sucks peen and smokes too much pot
Nick is hilar.
I worked way too many hours this week
and not enough next week.
Friends
Jesse left for Germany, he doesn't get back until I do...
I miss him dearly.
~~I don't have time for friends with the fucking freight house~~
D-R-A-M-A but everything is okay.
The Fam.
is at an all-time level of cuteness
...at least the niecesters
It's strange not having jen around
...I need a haircut...for serious.

6-6-06 national slayer day...eww

Wed, 07 Jun 2006 01:19:31 GMT

so let's see....My name is Erin and I am a very boring individual. My classes for next year are whack, i'm missing AP pysch, antomy, and humanities 2. maybe i'll just take physics instead of Ant. and Hum II. That sounds better...i guess.

Well....I've been lacking common sense for the past few weeks, i blame it on the lack of everything. School almost out, then I go back to school in a month to UM-Morris for two weeks with a bunch of nerds. Hopefully there will be a cute boy or two...wink wink. well...i'm going to go study for my art and english and math finals...sweeeet

Wed, 31 May 2006 04:01:47 GMT

YOU
[Relationship Status] - Single
[Shoe size] - 7.5 or 8
[Siblings] - Jen, Val, arianna, tiera
FAVORITES
[Colour] - pink or green
[Number] - 22
[Animal] - snakes/dogs
[Book] - my friend leonard
[Flower] - tulips
DO YOU
[Twirl your hair?] - yesss
[Have tattoos?] - no
[Cheat on tests?] - only in english with maureen and coco!!
[Like roller coasters?] - ehh
[Wish you could live somewhere else?]- chicagooo
[Like cleaning?] - if it`s out of my own free will, yes
[Write in cursive or print?] - both at once
[Know how to drive?] - yes
[Own a cell phone?] - yes
[Ever get off the internet?] - yeah

HAVE YOU EVER
[Been in a fist fight?] - no
[considered a life of crime?] - no
[Considered being a hooker?] - uhm, no.
[Been in love?] - no
[Made out with JUST a friend?] - pft, who hasn`t?
[Kicked someone in the nuts?] - not on purpose.

CURRENT..
[Current clothing] - pajamas
[Current hair] - wet
[Current thing I ought to be doing] - sleeping.
[Current CD in stereo] - stadium arcadium-rhcp
[Last movie you saw] - ehhhh, i don't remember

RANDOM THINGS...
[Last thing you ate] - grapes
[Believe there is life on other planets?] - no
[Read the newspaper?] - sometimes
[Hate yourself?] - noooo!
[Collect anything?] - nope
[Like your handwriting?] - it's too sloppy

LOVE..
[First crush] - walker judd!
[You believe in love at first sight?] - no
[You believe in "the one?"] - yes
[Are you a tease?] - no
[Too shy to make the first move?] - ha, yes.

ARE YOU A...
[Daydreamer] - all the time
[Sarcastic] - haha, yeah
[Introvert] - yes
[Extrovert] - yes

WOULD YOU RATHER...
[Pierce your nose or lip?] - nose
[Be serious or funny?] - funny. i don`t like being serious.

ARE YOU...
[Simple or complicated?] - complicated

ABOUT YOU...
[What time is it] - 11
[Name] - Erin
[Nickname(s)] - gibby, e, em(g)-80

WHAT DO YOU WANT...
[Where do you want to live]- chicago
[how many kids do you want] - 2
[What kind of job do you want] -doctor?
[do you want to get married] - probably not.

UNIQUE...
[Nervous Habits] - i blush and crack my fingers
[Are you double jointed] - in my fingers
[Can you roll your tongue] - yep
[Can you raise one eyebrow]- no
[Can you cross your eyes] - yes
[Do you make your bed daily] - no

CLOTHES, ETC...
[Which shoe goes on first] - right
[Ever thrown one at someone] - probably
[How Much money do you carry in your wallet] - 20-ish.

IN THE LAST MONTH HAVE YOU...
[Bought something] - too much food
[Gotten sick] - yes
[Sang] - yes
[Felt stupid] - yes
[Missed someone] - yes
[Gotten drunk] - no
[Gotten high] - no
[Danced crazy] - no/yes/mayberrrr
[Gotten your hair cut] - no
[Watched cartoons] - yes
[Lied] - yes

LAST PERSON THAT...
[Slept in your bed] - me
[Saw you cry] - moe or libby
[Made you cry] - my mom
[Saw a movie with you] - ..bill
[Said 'I love you' to you] - my mom

HAVE YOU EVER...
[Been to California] - yes
[Been to Canada] - yes
[Been to Europe] - no
[Wished you were the opposite sex] - only when i cant find clothes
[Snuck out of your house] - not my house

because I don't do cocaine...

Tue, 23 May 2006 03:45:44 GMT

same old same old. I got a new job at the freight house, I’m a hostess and it's cute. I defiantly have a few boys smitten with me. which rhymes with mitten..harhar! life is good, besides math, but isn't that how it always is? oh yeah, i still have Crazy in my life, only 7 more school days, only 7 more school days. Gosh, that's too long. I have a new crush, he's a swimmer and in NHS, cute much? I think so.

I got accepted into the summer scholar's program at UM-Morris, because I'm a smarty-pants. Oh, I also got a FUCKING SIX on my writing test, I'm so psyched! I work this weekend, come visit maureennn and i...oh and the cute cook who really isn't cute.

Tue, 02 May 2006 02:33:03 GMT

^{I got my license!!! I am so pumped!}

^{Let's see...I'm 16 now, I went clubbing for my first time, almost got raped about 10 times. grody.}

^{I applied to Caribou, Starbucks, The Frieghthouse, and Applebees. I hope I got a job soon.}

^{I'm going to a drive-in on Friday and Maureen is setting me up with a kid from Woodbury. She discribed him as a male version of me only tall, dark hair and muscluar. Me=short, blonde hair and scrawny. haha, i definatly see myself in her description. I hope that it's fun!

My life is really boring, i can't wait for summer...ummm, yeah. All in all life is going okay and i'm pretty much a major naf.}

Wed, 19 Apr 2006 03:53:31 GMT

It seems like Moe and I are hanging out constantly. I went to her house for a bonfire, definitely felt awkward not having a boyfriend since I was the only single person there. I feel like I fit in friend-wise, but everyone is just on another plane because they have their selfish needs met, but I don't. Kind of strange, but whatevs.

In other news, I got my math test back yesterday...and I got a B-
I was excited because with Katsky I would get Ds...haha.

For some strange reason today I got about 15 pieces of mail from private colleges. I was like...wow, that's WHACK! I guess I seem like the catholic type.

Fri, 14 Apr 2006 02:59:15 GMT

SICKXCORE

update:
Monday: Sick, came home from school and slept. didn't eat dinner. didn't do homework.
Tuesday: sick, got an essay assignment that i havent started yet. didnt eat dinner. didnt do homework. came home stressed and behind. still in an unbelievable mood for no apparent reason. Maybe it was talking to Tiffany, maybe it was because I had Mrs. Holcomb for a sub. Stayed up late doing math homework
Wednesday: Enrichment day, thank the Lord. Still sick, still not doing homework, still not eating dinner, still behind in everything, still had Mrs. Holcomb. Finished math homework in Enrichment...went to math, found out that only 2 out of 7 things were being turned in. Came home slept, woke up at 3:30am...remained awake for about two hours thinking about studying for math and reading Lord of the Flies because I am now about 115 pages behind.
Thursday: woke up early to do homework but took a long shower instead. went to school, still sick. First hour pissed because my art project is now ruined thanks to some snot nosed ball licker. Second hour took a math test, did only average on it. Third hour listened to Mrs. McRoberts jabber away like every hour, found out the David's lunch was stolen(most exciting think all day) Lunch was funny because Jesse is pretty much my life at lunch. That kid is so ADD i pee my pants. Fourth hour, called down to Mrs. Erikson's office, yet again, freaking out because I think that there were drugs or something being stored in my locker...turns out that she signed me up for a FREE summer program at UM-Morris to get 2 credits in English for college. Made my long break. Came home (Still sick) and layed in bed until The OC came on...fell in love with it like every Thursday.

I want to go watch Iron Chef, but I don't think that it is on. I hope to get my paper(s) done by Monday, but knowing me I'll put them off until the last minute. Oh, I found out that I am really stressed in Health, thus making me more stressed. I scored 788 when the healthy level is about 150...sweeet. I am fucked for life, at least until I graduate from medical school...ha. My dreams of being a peditrition are becoming less and less tangible. I don't think that I could get a Ph D in school, I can do another 10 years of school at the rate I'm going. Thank god for summer vacation, interupted by college life at Morris for two weeks...yess.

Tue, 11 Apr 2006 21:25:19 GMT

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Sun, 09 Apr 2006 02:49:59 GMT

I am that kid, the one who has a voice but is usually afraid to use it.

I stage dive from my chair to bed every night while listening to saves the day or At The Drive-in just to get me through whatever.

I listen to Prince, but act like its Slayer

I love my parents, and admit it.

I live with honor.

I tell my FRIENDS to stop being such pussies and live life.

I refuse to let my guard down.

I am desperate.

I am a degenerate.

I live, eat, breath the common fuck you because it's all I have and ever will.
I live by my middle fingers because at the end of the day I'm still the same poor, white, unpopular girl in the front row.

I loathe the general public.

Update

Thu, 06 Apr 2006 03:18:15 GMT

hate this, hate that, cannot stand them, cannot stand him/her, cannot stand this

needless to say a lot has been bothering me so much i had a mental break down. Lost my idol, teacher has cancer, death and destruction paves new roads for renewal and rebirth?

new quarter, first hour SUCKS. Second hour is awesome. Third hour is awesome with a wonderful seating chart. fourth hour is a bore.

My birthday is in three weeks. happy early birthday to me. Party at Olive Garden with ice cream cake and then off to uptown with a few awesomesss and then out partyingggg it up with one of the first bonfires of the year. hellz yes.

Wed, 05 Apr 2006 01:53:06 GMT

"Do you like chugging Fanta orange soda? I do, but now I’m thinking more about it… I learned something interesting about Fanta that I thought I would share. As Hitler came to power in Germany, the U.S. imposed many economic embargos to weaken the German Economy; one of these measures was cutting off business activity between Germany and large U.S. corporations. One of those corporations was Coca-Cola. So, rather than “lose the Nazi dime,” Coca-Cola developed Fanta orange soda, and thus was allowed to continue to manage their interests based in Nazi Germany under a different name and product. While millions were slaughtered, Coca-Cola flourished on both fronts! So… wanna Fanta?"

New classes:
Theater Arts I
Alg II
Honors English
Health 10

classes are ehhh, alright. Definatly have subs for math and english because katsky is a bitch and johnson was unfortunatly diagnosed with bone cancer. that ruined my week. I really love mrs. johnson even though she is so unorganized, unpredicatable, and nuts. I hope that she recovers really soon.

In other news, I got the new Prince cd and I have SPRING FEVER!!! I can't wait for the lakes to unfreeze and warm up!!!!!!! Summer is just around the corner, but i need to focus on school because I'm awesome like that. ADD and spring fever, sounds like a plan, man.

Sun, 02 Apr 2006 20:33:16 GMT

BRING BACK DEADXSTOP.

max and moe are my saviors...

Sat, 25 Mar 2006 05:12:35 GMT

<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3
finals, finals, finals
baby carrots
moe and max hangs
WWF, noodles, video games
Target, Coldstone, Walmart.
Amazing.
I love those two so much.
<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3

Tue, 21 Mar 2006 06:07:21 GMT

time:12:04am
eatingsoup
tookashower
needtodomathhomework

i feel really tired and really hyper. I am at two opposite ends of the spectrum. I feel weird, like i'm drunqsss. I cant focus on shiat. I need to get a real job and stop asking for money from mi parents...fuck that shit. LJ, oh how i hate you drama llama. fuckkkkkking drunqqqssss

Tue, 21 Mar 2006 05:10:08 GMT

^{_{+++
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even
---
+++

+birffday is coming up, hellz yes
+cant wait to see tiffany. total lover.
-hungry, too lazy
-cant wait for the banshees to come out, but i really dont like vampires...so you know
-the iraq war needs to stop, NOW. 3 years, c'mon stop wasting the money...fucking idiots
+end of the quarter, only 50 more school days!!
+moe(s def) is amazing, she keeps me sane during lunch and english
+i and hearts ; TAI...
+Ben is totally awesome, total brah. Even if he is a drug addict...<3}}

Tue, 21 Mar 2006 05:04:27 GMT

LAST PERSON WHO....
Slept in your bed: me
Saw you cry: I don't know
Made you cry: my dad
Spent the night at your house: steve
You shared a drink with: moe(s def)
You went to the movies with: Jennifer-hp 4
You went to the mall with: i have no idea
Yelled at you: arianna
Sent you an e-mail: Chris Bagwell...best brah ever

HAVE YOU EVER....
Said "I love you" and meant it?: yes
Gotten in a fight w/your dog/cat/bird/fish,etc.: no
Yell: yes.
Fight: Physical fight? no
other fight yes
Been to New York?: no
Been to Florida?: yes
California?: yes
Hawaii?: No
Mexico?: yes
China?: no
Canada?: yes
Danced naked?: no
Wish you were the opposite sex?: no
Had an imaginary friend?: try like 12 when i was a wee tot

RANDOM
Red or blue?: blue
Spring or fall? fall
Are you bored?: yes
Last noise you heard?: microwave
Last time you went out of the state: does WI count? two days ago
Things you like in a girl/guy?: endless
Do you have a crush on someone?: oh yes, totally
What book are you reading now?: dress your family in courdroy and denim
Worst feeling in the world?: probably getting shot in the kneecaps.
What is the first thing you think when you wake in the morning?: shit, what time is it?
How many rings before you answer?: usually the 2nd ring when the caller id pops up.
Future daughter's name: i dont know
Future son's name: above
If you could have any job you wanted, what would it be?: doctor.
Are you a lefty, righty or ambidextrous?: righty
What's under your bed?: clothes, a water bottle, shoes, magazines, ipod
Current Age: 15
Siblings: 2 real sisters, 2 niecester, 1 bagwell brother
Location: the maht
Piercings: ears
Boyfriend/Girlfriend: ixnayyy

THE EXTRA STUFF...
Do you do drugs?: no
Do you drink: no
Who is your best friend?: dead
What kind of Shampoo and Conditioner do you use?: aveda
What are you most scared of:? Failure
What clothes do you sleep in?: shorts and tee
Who is the last person who called you?: bagwell
Where do you want to get married?: no idea
If you could change anything about yourself what would that be?: get better circulation.
Who do you really hate?: they know who
Favorite number: 7
Been In Love?: no
What Type Automobile Do You Drive: 04 elantra
Are You Timely Or Always Late: unpredictable
Do You Have A Job: i think not
Do You Like Being Around People: sometimes
Are you for world peace: uhhh, no i want continued malicious murder. that's what i'm FOR.
Are you a health freak: yes and no. I just dont want to put meat and dairy into my body because of the hormones fed to the animals
Have you ever loved someone you had no chance with: no
Have You Ever Cried Over Something Someone of The Opposite Sex Did: no sir
Do You Have A "Type" Of Person You Always Go After: no, just someone with a similar value system
Want Someone You Don't Have Right Now: yes
Ever Liked a close boy/Girl Friend: no
Are You Lonely Right Now: kinda, no one is home.
Ever Afraid You'll Never Get Married: no
Do You Want To Get Married: yes
Do You Want Kids: yes, adopted

FAVORITE...
Room In house: mine, or kitchen, yum.
Type(s) of music: rock. indie. hiphop.
Song: black mamba
Memory: too many.
Day Of The Week: saturday.
Color: pinks or greens
Perfume and/Or Cologne: hollister
Month: march.
Season: fall

IN THE LAST 48 HOURS, HAVE YOU....
Cried: no
Bought Something: food and coffee
Gotten Sick: no
Sang: yes
Said I Love You: No
Wanted To Tell Someone You Loved them: no
Met Someone New: no
Moved On: no
Talked To Someone: yeah
Had A Serious Talk: yes
Missed Someone: yes
Hugged Someone: yes.
Kissed Someone: no
Fought With Your Parents: no
Dreamed About Someone: yes
Had a lot of sleep: total opposite

Sun, 19 Mar 2006 01:36:42 GMT

1. Would you get back with your ex if you could? no.

2. What kind of shirt are you wearing? inspiration track jacket.

3. Have you made out with anyone on your friend's list? three. guess who.

4. Do you have 'a thing' for anyone on your top 8? yeah, no.

5. Are you addicted to myspace? meh. it passes the time.

6. Do you hold grudges? like it is my job.

7. How many kids do you wanna have? 2 adopted.

8. Do you have a good relationship with both your parents? yes, i love them more than anything in the world.

9. Do you make over 40k a year? ha, no...i don't have a job

10. Name one song you can relate to right now: you don't even want to know. seriously.

11. What name would you want to have besides the one you have? i wouldn't.

12. Would you ever make out with someone of the same sex? been there. done that.

13. What is your mother's name? patricia lynn (campion) gibbs

14. What did you do for your last bday? dinner. tae kwon do. family.

15. What's your main ringtne on your phone? dance, dance- fob

16. WHAT TIME DID YOU WAKE UP? 9:00.

17. WHAT WERE YOU DOING AT MIDNIGHT sleeping

18. HOW MANY EX'S ARE ON YOUR FRIENDS LIST? none

19. DO YOU LIKE HAVING YOUR HAIR PULLED? is that a personal question?

20. FAVORITE CITY? chicago!!!

21. FAVORITE COLOR? pink or green.

22. NAME SOMETHING YOU CAN'T WAIT TO DO? go to chicago.

23. LAST TIME YOU SAW YOUR MOM? an hour ago.

24. DO YOU GET ALONG WITH YOUR SIBLINGS? meh, more so with jennifer than valerie.

25. What is one thing you wish you could change about yourself? i wish i was smarter

26. IF YOU HAD $250,000...HOW WOULD YOU SPEND IT? college, move to chicago, food(duh!)

27. HOW LONG HAVE YOU BEEN AT YOUR CURRENT JOB? school is my job.

28. has been eaten

29. Last person you called? jennifer.

30. Last thing you ate? boca chicken nuggets.

31. your favorite month? june.

32. Least favorite month? november.

33. WHAT'S THE LAST PIECE OF CLOTHING YOU BORROWED FROM SOMEONE? uhhhh no idea. im small. it doesnt happen often.

34. Who is getting on ur nerves right now? that is a secret

35. MOST VISITED WEBPAGE? myspace.

36. LAST PERSON YOU TEXT MESSAGED? dad.

37. Last person that made you sad? not saying on here(they should know who they are)

38. Would you take a bullet for your best friend? no.

39. Your favorite drink? kiddy cocktail.

40. Name one thing you are passionate about: tae kwon do.

41. Good sex or xtacy pill? um obvious answer.

42. Have you been to Europe: i wish.

'till the end of time

Sat, 18 Mar 2006 01:03:51 GMT

update:
-Arianna for real bruised my trachea with her head...its sweeet!
-That special someone makes me do stupid things that makes me look freaking retarded
-End of the quarter is next friday...I need to get my math grade up...a lot
-I got a scholarship...hellz yes!!!
-Apple crisp....amazing.
-I HATE a certain someone with a fiery passion
-Molly and I are talking again, I'm happy about that.
-Trygg and I aren't hating eachother, I'm happy about that.
-Tae Kwon Do=DRAMA!!! Omgosh, it's intense...let me tell you!
-Testing looks like it's going to be in October or February.
-CHICAGO IS IN TWO WEEKKKKSSSS!!! I cant wait to see my sista from another motha!

Wed, 15 Mar 2006 05:01:15 GMT

Mahtomedi is about one thing:conformity. The clothes you wear, the people you assosiate with, the money you have, the classes you take, everything. You cannot escape it by doing something, only if you act and think some way. You cannot be a wonderful person without first acting like a wonderful person. You cannot escape conformity by dressing or flaunting something. You need to think some way, be someway, act someway.

If you walk into a room and say "Hi, my name is Erin and I'm a nonconformist." that is bullshit. Conforming to the nonconforming. Think for yourself, do for youself, be yourself. If you really want to escape, first think of why you want to be that person. If you want to be "goth" or "punk" because they dont conform, you ARE conforming. Have your own attitude, BE your attitude.